sigh.

I hate being so tired. It's always so miserable and tiresome and depressing all the time, even though it's sunny today, it's not doing a lot for my mood. I can't sleep yet because I have rehearsal. I tried to go to sleep early last night, but I forgot to go to take a shower til like ten, which is the normal time I go, so I didn't get to bed til like eleven. Life sucks with chronic not-enough-sleep-ness. Note to self: go to bed early tonight over pain of death and misery! I'm not entirely sure that will work, but whatever. The extra exclamation points should do it... not. Anyway, I really need the sleep. I think it's just habit that I don't go to bed til like eleven even though I really need to go earlier. I really want to sleep more, but it's a vicious cycle: I wake up tired, so I drink coffee, but then I have to stay at school an extra three hours, so I hang out on the computer at home longer, so I get to bed later, and also because I'm still caffinated, so I sleep less, so I wake up tired so I can do it all again. I don't know what else to do except force myself to get off the computer. I my dad agreed to force me to get off the computer at 9:30 tonight so I could get to bed earlier, but I'm not entirely sure whether he actually will or not. I doubt it. But it could work. PLEASE LET IT WORK! I really need to stop talking to myself. Another thing on the List of Stuff I Should Probably Do. Sigh. I hate high school.